I’ve been thinking about steps lately. big steps. and I’ve been thinking about taking them. big steps are hard and scary and really not something I am good at. I am good at little steps. the ones where I see where my foot will land and I see what it will land on and I see where it will go next. the ones that are well thought-out and well executed. the ones I think and over-think until I’m certain (or at least until I feel certain) that nothing can go wrong. but the big steps are just a whole different kind of beast. the big steps are into wide open air and I’m pretty sure my foot will just keep going down down down forever without hitting anything solid. I’ve spent my life taking methodical steps. and now I’m thinking about taking one giant leap that will be way off in some other corner of reality that I don’t yet know.
I’ve also been thinking about the “responsible” thing. and I’ve been wondering what it would be like to maybe not do the “responsible” thing. but maybe to do the thing that will inject life back into everything. because I’ve spent my life with one perspective of responsibility. the kind that centered around a certain kind of job and a certain kind of skill set. but if nashville has taught me anything, it’s that you can love what you do. it’s not always about paying your dues forever. it’s not always about doing something because you can. sometimes the atypical thing is actually more responsible. responsible to your health. to your happiness. to your place as one who is loving the world to life. I’ve spent so much of my life fitting into a box…and don’t get me wrong, I actually love the box. it is safe and kind and relatively easy to navigate. it has served me well for over 10 years. the box is what I know. and yet.
big steps sometimes must be made.
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